Dear 2010

Please prove to be a lot less heart-achy, stressful and bullshit filled than 2009. 

I've dealt with so much of it, I could manure a whole corn field. 

On a lighter note, in 2009 I proved to myself I'm a lot stronger then I thought, 

plus I met a few very good people that definitely add to my life. 

Good-bye, 2009. 

Hello, new beginnings. 

Happy New Year to all. 

broken

Main Entry: bro·ken 

Pronunciation: \ˈbrō-kən\

Function: adjective

Etymology: Middle English, from Old English brocen, from past participle of brecan to break

Date: 13th century

1 : violently separated into parts : shattered 2 : damaged or altered by breaking: as a : having undergone or been subjected to fracture  b of land surfaces : being irregular, interrupted, or full of obstacles c : violated by transgression  d :

Red&Gold.

Things have to go wrong, so you can build them back again the way you want. 

Paper cuts

My blurry eyes

Cannot focus.

Why do I get so

Panicked? 

Small, heartbreaking 

Moments turn uncomfortable

Into terror.

It puzzles me how

I can leave fresh flowers

For weeks, until they are 

So brown and crispy

In a wine bottle disguised

As a vase.

Completely dead and

A foreshadow to now.

Each petal

A problem.

Each stem,

An apology. 

Yet the thought of discarding them

Is unheard of.

Out of place upsets

The intricate balance that

We strive so hard to achieve yet 

Consistently fail miserably at

Every time. 

green light, go.

FAKE OR REAL INDIFFERENCE IS A POWERFUL PERSONAL WEAPON.

Now if I could only harness enough strength to do so. 

Moldy Doily

photo by Alex Kershaw

real girls. real boys.

Only 2 more weeks of school left.

Reassurance.

No I in us.