Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Dear 2010


Please prove to be a lot less heart-achy, stressful and bullshit filled than 2009. 
I've dealt with so much of it, I could manure a whole corn field. 
On a lighter note, in 2009 I proved to myself I'm a lot stronger then I thought, 
plus I met a few very good people that definitely add to my life. 
Good-bye, 2009. 
Hello, new beginnings. 
Happy New Year to all. 

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

broken


Main Entry: bro·ken 
Pronunciation: \ˈbrō-kən\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English brocen, from past participle of brecan to break
Date: 13th century

1 : violently separated into parts : shattered 2 : damaged or altered by breaking: as a : having undergone or been subjected to fracture  b of land surfaces : being irregular, interrupted, or full of obstacles c : violated by transgression  d :

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Red&Gold.


Things have to go wrong, so you can build them back again the way you want. 

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Paper cuts


My blurry eyes
Cannot focus.
Why do I get so
Panicked? 
Small, heartbreaking 
Moments turn uncomfortable
Into terror.
It puzzles me how
I can leave fresh flowers
For weeks, until they are 
So brown and crispy
In a wine bottle disguised
As a vase.
Completely dead and
A foreshadow to now.
Each petal
A problem.
Each stem,
An apology. 
Yet the thought of discarding them
Is unheard of.
Out of place upsets
The intricate balance that
We strive so hard to achieve yet 
Consistently fail miserably at
Every time. 

Saturday, December 12, 2009

green light, go.




FAKE OR REAL INDIFFERENCE IS A POWERFUL PERSONAL WEAPON.
Now if I could only harness enough strength to do so. 

Monday, December 7, 2009

Moldy Doily



photo by Alex Kershaw

Sunday, December 6, 2009

real girls. real boys.



Only 2 more weeks of school left.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

3 yellow flowers

Apple.

Coated in candy.

A disguise of the senses,

Exhilaration to taste.

A fake.

Sweetness upon sickly sweetness.

Painful in a good way.

Painful in a horrid way.

You have brought me to this.

No use for a name,

Nor a gesture.

Black apple.

Rotten with refineries,

Sour as the

Vinegar of my words.

I am really bad at

Allowing you to die by

Yourself. 

Roots where my legs used to be.

Why can't all things of whimsy, magic & horror be real?
I long for an escape.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

eternal


      In faith, I will. Let me peruse this face. 
   Mercutio's kinsman, noble County Paris! 
   What said my man, when my betossed soul 
   Did not attend him as we rode? I think 
   He told me Paris should have married Juliet: 
  Said he not so? or did I dream it so? 
    Or am I mad, hearing him talk of Juliet, 
    To think it was so? O, give me thy hand, 
   One writ with me in sour misfortune's book! 
   I'll bury thee in a triumphant grave; 
  A grave? O no! a lantern, slaughter'd youth, 
   For here lies Juliet, and her beauty makes 
   This vault a feasting presence full of light. 
   Death, lie thou there, by a dead man interr'd.

       How oft when men are at the point of death 

   Have they been merry! which their keepers call 
    A lightning before death: O, how may I 
    Call this a lightning? O my love! my wife! 
   Death, that hath suck'd the honey of thy breath, 
    Hath had no power yet upon thy beauty: 
  Thou art not conquer'd; beauty's ensign yet 
    Is crimson in thy lips and in thy cheeks, 
   And death's pale flag is not advanced there. 
   Tybalt, liest thou there in thy bloody sheet? 
   O, what more favor can I do to thee, 
    Than with that hand that cut thy youth in twain 
   To sunder his that was thine enemy? 
   Forgive me, cousin! Ah, dear Juliet, 
   Why art thou yet so fair? shall I believe 
  That unsubstantial death is amorous, 

  And that the lean abhorred monster keeps 
   Thee here in dark to be his paramour? 
   For fear of that, I still will stay with thee; 
  And never from this palace of dim night 
 Depart again. Here, here will I remain 
   With worms that are thy chamber-maids; O, here 
   Will I set up my everlasting rest, 
   And shake the yoke of inauspicious stars 
   From this world-wearied flesh. Eyes, look your last! 
  Arms, take your last embrace! and, lips, O you 

   The doors of breath, seal with a righteous kiss 
  A dateless bargain to engrossing death!

          

   Come, bitter conduct, come, unsavoury guide! 
  Thou desperate pilot, now at once run on 
   The dashing rocks thy sea-sick weary bark! 
   Here's to my love!

           
   O true apothecary! 
   Thy drugs are quick. Thus with a kiss I die.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Good mourning.






dirtyflaws

Monday, November 9, 2009

Sunday, November 8, 2009

dimming lamp lights

I walk alone.
Under
Gilded pools of light.
My shadow
Following me like a quiet
Killer.
Friends like this are few
And far between.
I won't write.
I won't call.
I won't speak. 
Good-byes may be gentle.
Like a sweet caress from a 
Loving mother.
Or hateful.
Like a red hot poker
On my tongue.
Because in the end
Its really just the same.
Just I,
Spinning in a darkened field.
Hands outstretched and
Eyes shut, 
Waiting for someone to
Stop me. 

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Guilty Pleasures: Lame Edition


1. Candy, cake or anything else made of sugar. I cannot resist.
2. Scented candles or air freshener. I love the smell of clean.
3. Clothes for my dog. She has 9-11 outfits and she is only 5 months.
4. ANTM. shut up.
5. Shoes & boots. My pay cheques are wither away from this expensive habit.
6. Clothes, see above excuse. 
7. Wine. The only alcohol that doesnt give me intense heart burn. Oh well. Hard liquor is a bitch.
8. Movies. I am obsessed with seeing movies, no matter what the review is. 
9. Fashion blogs. Its inspiration.
10. Make-up and body shit. I am a sucker for anything that smells pretty or makes me look that way.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Window Blues.


I sleep with windows open
I sleep with eyes wide
In case you would come walking
In case you change your mind
But don't strain yourself for me
Don't break yourself for me
Don't lose your selfish ways for me

I keep a leash around you 
And I keep it nice and tight
In case you would go walking over forbidden line
But don't go out soft on me 
Don't come across for me
Dont lose your selfish ways over me

Un deux trois quatre cinq six
A hundred times around
Keep on flunking out
Keep me wanting more

Un deux trois quatre cinq six
A hundred times is fine
For you I go all blind
Oh my where is my mind

I keep my window open
I keep it open wide
So keep me, keep it open
Oh keep me on your mind

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Saturday, October 24, 2009

I feel homesick


For a place I have never been to. 

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

La Mer

photos from baby says boutique






I choose you
In a sea of dreams
Urchins, poking and pricking
Stinging my skin.
Swaths of gauze and tulle
Floating in the centre piece
Around my head.
We bring smiles like
Shells.
And silence like
Waves. 
Blue shoes tip toe
Through tawny sands.
Sinking and bouncing.
Weightless, like
My real feelings 
For you.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Style Black







This line is strangely intriguing. Its hard to believe what the creative team at MAC must have been dealing with while deciding who the target market would be for Style Black. You never know who will be interested in high qual black lipstick and greasy oil slicked eyes. Apparently everyone.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Friday, October 9, 2009

Raining

cold sick hell. 

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Tuesday, September 29, 2009